I'm struggling as a mom every single day.
There I said it.
Most days I wake up and I’m feeling like,
"Yes, today is going to be amazing, I’m going to be amazing and my kids are going to be EVEN MORE amazing!"
Fast forward thirty minutes… I’m irritated by forgotten clothes on the bathroom floor and shoes we cannot find. A snowball begins that is hard to stop at that point…the day is ruined and now I see every fault not just in myself, but in my kids.
Why won’t they pick up their clothes off the floor…?
I’ve asked them to take care of that one million times a day…
But then again, why am I not a good enough mom to just pick up the clothes off the floor with a smile on my face and with no ‘attitude’ what’s so ever, (as my mom would say.) And there it is…
Everyone is always saying…"Girl, I don’t know how you do it with four kids!’’
(Ha! Neither do I!)
"You’re such a good mom, you’re always taking your kids places and hosting activities!’’
(At the cost of most of my sanity…)
Feeling down and out over some clothes on the floor is just the tip of the iceberg on why I’m definitely struggling as a mom.
There are most certainly other things that happen in my life that make me feel like I'm struggling as a mom and unworthy of these little beings that I’ve birthed.
- I don’t cook every day. When I do, I don’t always include a veggie…When I don’t...it's even worst...I take them to McDonald’s for nuggets that I think are chicken…I think. Let’s not talk about the burgers.
- I shout. Quite a bit. I now understand when my mom use to complain that she felt like a broken record. Apparently, this is hereditary…I am now the broken record and must repeat myself a bajillion times a day. The volume helps me get the point across…I think.
(Disclaimer: I'm working on implementing some woo-sah tricks into my day. See how I Bring Zen to My Den!)
- My house is all kinds of disorderly. There’s always a pile of clothes that need to be folded on the couch and my kitchen floor should be mopped daily. (*Note to self, get a Swiffer.)
- I allow my kids to play the Xbox for obscene amounts of time, especially on the weekends/holidays.
- I giddily look forward to the kids leaving for school and the 2-year-old going to the babysitter 90% of the time. The other 10% I just don’t feel like getting up to get them ready for school or the babysitter.
- I can get lost in my cell phone on Facebook for...I'd rather not say... It’s a getaway from the noise and hubbub around me. Not gonna lie, I’m also lurking on friend’s pages that I have not seen since high school observing their seemingly perfect lives, with their perfect family all while maintaining a BEAT TO THE GAWDS face! I’m a bit jelly sometimes…can you tell?
- And the thing that makes me the worst…sometimes, I go in my bedroom, sit on the bed and I’m feeling like such a failure and I cry because for goodness sakes…I am not cut out for this whole mom thing.
As I’m listing some of these things, I know it sounds like I might be being a bit over the top.
These ‘failures’ for me as a mom, can feel SO BIG depending on what time of day you catch me.
As a mom, I have been given these little people that depend on me and will eventually populate the world and make it a better place (I NEED them to make the world better!) and it’s my responsibility to make sure that I get them ready for this world.
And how can I do that from my room, crying and feeling inadequate?
Ok, ok, my panic/pity rant is done. But let’s face it…
Mom’s chime into the comments if you can agree or disagree or have more to add…Mom’s make the world go ‘round.
We’re here for the challenge day in and day out.
The challenge can be something as small as conquering laundry and making sure the kids are clean and presentable on the way out to school…all while juggling other responsibilities, like remembering to schedule well checkups and dentist appointments.
We're here for it!
We’re here for all the challenge of appearing to be normal, put together, totally positive mom while slaying sleepless nights, stuffy noses, homework with the dreaded CORE curriculum, fashion emergencies, braces…there are so many challenges.
And thru out these challenges, there’s nothing that has comforted me more than to pick up the phone and hear my best friend say,
“We’re dealing with the same ish over here!”Click To Tweet It felt so good to be reminded that I’m not the only one struggling as a mom in my journey. No one is getting it all right, all the time.
So, I’m just here to say out loud, I’m not a failing a mom. I am doing the best I can. If you’ve ever felt like a failure at any point in your mom journey, you are not alone in this and if you think you are alone then you need to send me a message. We’ll be quick friends and I’ll say it again, YOU’RE NOT ALONE!
If you’re feeling brave, please leave a story or comment about a #TotalMomMoment you’ve had and how you get thru your #MomChallenges.